Still Being Carried

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And I will still be carrying you when you are old. Your hair will turn gray, and I will still carry you. I made you, and I will carry you to safety.
— Isaiah 46:4

I met with my spiritual director yesterday. She’s pretty awesome. She told me in your 50s and 60s things get more complex. Who knew? I thought an empty nest was a quiet nest? Sally is nearing the end of her 60s and I’m just now taking a long look around at my 50s, trying to get my sea-legs. Sally and I wondered what 70s are like. Do things really slow? Quiet down? Simplify?

I wish there were more voices of women in my life like Sally. More women moving through these complex years, threading their way back and forth from career to marriage to adult children to aging parents to changing minds (and bodies!) to ministry and oh so much more! Women who could speak a word of encouragement to me here and there. Women who would say, “Peace! Be strong now; be strong.” (Daniel 10:18)

There are a lot of wonderful young female Christian voices in this digital world calling out to each other. I love to see their strength and beauty. But there seems to be a void of more mature women taking the time to speak life-giving words of encouragement to fellow travelers while also doing the important work of calling down to the younger ones, pointing out what lies ahead, maybe helping them miss a pothole or two.. I’m going to try to find those voices… to look for those with a few wrinkles and maybe even some gray hair who are still being carried to safety. And perhaps they will encourage me to get back to writing, to use this space to notice God working, to glory in His Presence, and to remember His faithfulness.

Here’s my first look: Michele Morin at “Living Our Days” - married 30 years, four sons, two daughters-in-law, two grandkids… loves tea and poetry and Bible study. Looking forward to hearing more from this voice.

More to come as I keep searching. See sidebar where I’ll keep of list of those “Still Being Carried".

Christ’s Peace - B

2018 Books


Although I didn’t nearly read as many books as I had hoped to, 2018’s book list isn’t too shabby with a total of 23 books read or listened to. E books dominated by far:

Paper books: 6
Audio books: 4
E books: 13

Favorite Fiction: Barrowfields (Audio)
Favorite General Non-Fiction: Tie between Educated (Audio) and Grain Brain (E)
Favorite Christian Non-Fiction: Unseen Realm (Paper)

Full list in order read:

  1. News of the World (E)

  2. Barrowfields (Audio)

  3. Beautiful Not Yet (Paper)

  4. Thornbirds (E)

  5. Annihilation (E)

  6. Remains of the Day (E)

  7. Ideal Team Player (E)

  8. Mag Pie Murders (Audio)

  9. Unseen Realm (Paper)

  10. Contemplative Vision (Paper)

  11. Dispatches from Pluto (E)

  12. Illusion of Separateness (E)

  13. Apostle’s Creed (E)

  14. In This House of Brede (E)

  15. The Endurance (Audio)

  16. Interludes (E)

  17. The Bible as Communication (Paper)

  18. Hermeneutics (Paper)

  19. Murder of Roger Ackroyd (E)

  20. Gratitude (Paper)

  21. Joy of Poetry (E)

  22. Educated (Audio)

  23. Grain Brain (E)

Be Well - Physically


Today’s goal was to get rid of the crappy food in the fridge and pantry and then to replenish with low carb, naturally gluten free options. Matt made us a wonderful fish dish for dinner tonight with scrumptious lemon and garlic green beans. I also made my first homemade salad dressing: lemon mustard vinaigrette. Yummy! Very full and very tired tonight. ❤️

So Long, 40s!


See ya later, 40s! I only have a few more days left to hang out with you! It’s been great, really - we’ve had some tough times, but overall you’ve been good to me!

I’ve grown and persevered. There’s been mostly good times… Our boy got married and made me a Grammy - TWICE! Two children have graduated from college and our last one is on her way. My community has grown with new friends…. God has broadened my heart to give more space for some very special people I love so very much. Yet, old friends continue to walk alongside me… we have not lost each other. Work has become more of a place of ministry than a place of business and striving. And I’ve started on my way down the path to get a Masters in Biblical Studies and Theology. I’m not sure of the end game plan for that, but I’m trusting and moving forward.

Matt, my constant, is always beside me…. making me laugh, cheering me on…. patient and loving… He is my heart.

In sadness, I’ve lost my spiritual mother to cancer, seen my father slip into dementia, and watched one child struggle valiantly with mental illness.

And all along - GOD!…. He is here! His wagon tracks overflow with abundance! (Psalm 65:11) And I pray for the strength to live purposefully for His glory in this new decade by:

  • being part of His story through mission and community;

  • being obedient and content while following the path He has set for me;

  • using the resources He has given - prayer and His Word;

  • knowing His power, presence, and promise through faith and trust.

Verses I’m grasping tightly for this next season:

You crown the year with your bounty; your wagon tracks overflow with abundance. Psalm 65:11

I awake, and I am still with you. Psalm 139:18(b)

And finally…

Now therefore arise, go over THIS Jordan… Joshua 1:2

So, this is 50!